Mother's Day is always hard for us because it was the day that my dad killed himself 12 years ago. I have a great relationship with my grandmother, my mom and I are still a work in progress, she has shown that she really loves my children and we are building on that. After dad died she went off the deep end and it was all just bad timing, I was going into my junior year of high school, I tried out for Drill the same day that he was found. I was just mad at him for leaving us and just giving up, I didn't understand, and I know I didn't grieve losing him until the year I got married, and then even more so as I had my children. I know that he is looking down on us and that he is proud of me. I felt his presence with me many times in the NICU with Matthew. Matthew was born with copper red hair and he had red hair, I felt like it was his way of saying hi to us, totally coincidental we gave Matthew the same middle name that he had, Allen. I can't think of those 3 weeks in the NICU without thinking of my dad, and Matty finally came home the day after Mother's Day, the day that says my dad died when we know he was actually gone on Mother's Day.
My mother-in-law doesn't like Mother's Day and actually volunteers to work most years on that day. She is a labor and delivery nurse, but I feel like that she did a great job raising her children, not all mothers have had the opportunity to be in the temple with all of her children and spouses, as she has had. My sister-in-law adopted sweet little Esther from China and when they were getting her sealed to them we were ALL there, and as I sat there it occured to me that is my dream to someday be in the temple with ALL of my immediate family, so I hope she realizes it did take some good mothering on her part for that to happen......... so Susan I love you and I hope you know that I do aspire to be like you. I know too that Andy is the great man that he is because you are his mom......
Grandma thank-you for taking on the challenge of raising me like your daughter and I love and appreciate you SO MUCH!