My heart is heavy and I've shed tears for someone that I've met once, for about 10 minutes. My friend's sister-in-law came with her to the shoe/jewelry party that I had in November, she had just found out that she was having a girl, and I had just found out that I was pregnant. She let me rub her belly in the hopes that I could rub some girl vibes from her belly to mine, we laughed about it. On Monday I noticed on Facebook that my friend was throwing a shower for her sister-in-law so I went to the event to see when she was due and saw a note from the girl's sister stating that they had lost the baby. She was 3 weeks away from delivering her baby girl. Losing a child is every woman's worst nightmare, I can't imagine and I don't understand why it happens. I had a very spiritual experience in getting pregnant this time around, I was prompted (for about a year) and I finally felt like I was ready, so I went off birth control and there was talk from the doctor that I would need Clomed to get pregnant, I just wanted to wait for a few months and see if we would get pregnant on our own, and sure enough the first month off, I was pregnant! I have been faced with some trials with this baby so far, and I'm getting through it all knowing that I was supposed to get pregnant, and the saying "Thy will be done" is constantly going through my thoughts. But I just don't understand why His will would be for a mother to lose her child. So I'm going to be done thinking about the why's and concentrate on the feelings that I've had, and just keep the faith that I know this baby will join our family, and pray that my friend can somehow find peace and be blessed with a child.